I thought about it the last few days, and here's my decision. I am going to take a break for a few months.
My blood test came back and yes, I was told to start Clomid today if I wanted to since my progestrone level was still low.
The thing is we are planning our vacation to Grenada in July for a couple of weeks. While we are there, we will be doing island hopping, too. Not that this clomid cycle is going to work right at the first time, but I really don't want to fly if I did get pregnant. I don't want this trip to be our Costa Rica all over again. Even if it was safe to fly, if anything happened, I will not able to let go. What's another few months. In a grand scheme of things, that's nothing.
It's silly I am worried about getting pregnant, but I really think I have no problem getting pregnant now my uterus is all cleaned out. I got pregnant the first month when I came off from the BC. Mind you that was when I was like 22, but still. With Tim's super sperm and clomid induced super egg, who knows how soon this will happen.
Anyway, maybe this is good. I have no idea when my ovulation will start again on its own, but it might just start by the time we come back from the vacation. My period was always regular before my miscarriage. Probably my body just needs more time. I am sick of searching for things on internet and worrying about everything. I am sick of the fact TTC is the only thing I think about 24/7. Although lately, I haven't really thought about it and I feel better.
