Happy Monday

I like Mondays.  I always have more energy on Mondays.  I think I am most motivated on Mondays, too.  It's a new week and you are given another chance to get things right.  
When I say this to people, they look at me funny and say "I guess that's a good way to look at it."

The thing is when I was working on my Masters in Accounting through accelerated program, we had to get through each class in 5 weeks.  We were doing one class at a time, but we were able to get through the whole program in a year while normal Masters in Accounting is two year program.  Our projects were always due on Sunday.  Working full time, I studied throughout the week, but I was glued to my desk on Saturdays and Sundays.  So, weekends weren't something fun.  Rather, Mondays were fun, because I could goof off a little.  This kind of stuck with me and that's why I like Mondays.     

Anyway, I kind of gave up about getting my AF.  I figured I'd give it another couple of weeks before I start to freak out and call my RE what the hell is going on.  I hope to God I don't have Asherman's Syndrome where scar tissue forms around my uterus resulting in adhesions that my whole uterine cavity is occluded.... From what I read, I have 30% possibility of getting this stuff with my missed miscarriage and D&C.  I have never won a lottery, I have never been lucky, but I feel like I will be the lucky one when it comes to bad stuff.  I mean look at me.  1 out 4 women have miscarriage and I was the lucky 25%.   

I listen to Pandora when I am at work on my headset.  Normally, it's just a background for me to tune out other people and I don't really pay attention to the lyrics or anything like that.  I also have heard this song many times before but I never really paid much attention or if I did, I thought she was singing about some guy.  But suddenly, it made me think she was probably singing about a baby.  The song is Celine Dion's New
Day Has Come. I was completely blindsided by what I think she was singing about.  This song reminded me how happy I was for the few weeks I was pregnant.  


  

 I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don't shed a tear

So through darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you

Hush now
I see a light in the sky
Oh it's almost blinding me 
I can't believe I've been touched by an angel
With love

Let the rain come down
And wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul
And drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls 
For a new sun
A new day has come
A new day has come

Where it was dark now there's is light
Where there was pain, now there's joy
Where there was weakness, i found my strength 
All in the eyes of a boy