Today was the day for my hysteroscopy. The doctor who performed the procedure was not my new doctor, but he was a nice one, too. I also have to say I am so happy that I switched my RE practice entirely. People at USF are so nice. Nurse, receptionist, doctors, everyone. I waited no time before I was taken to the room. The nurse told me to pee so she could make sure I wasn't pregnant. She took my blood pressure and it was really high, very abnormal for me. She thought it was probably because I was nervous.
Dr. I came in and he asked me if I understood why we had to do this procedure. He told me to tell him in my words, tell him my understanding so he knew I understood why.
Dr. I and nurse made sure I was able to see the screen as he performed the procedure. He put the numbing agent around my cervix, but when the camera was inserted, I just gasped, because it was pretty painful. He said he saw a significant scar tissue and camera won't go in. He pulled it out then put more numbing agent. He broke the scar tissue then he put the camera in. I didn't even want to look at the screen. It was kind of gross and it was also painful. Not like crazy pain now I am done, but it was very uncomfortable. I could feel the camera squiggling around inside of me. He took pictures of my uterus and in about 10-15 minutes, we were done. He was talking to me and was telling me I was doing very well. He asked me how I was feeling and I told him "Bad, but You are kinda up there and I will just suck it up. No turning back now." He laughed and said "We will stop if you are really feeling bad." I told him "Just finish please, I need to see the end of this. I am okay."
He showed me the pictures and explained to me each picture. First, I had a scar tissue which he was able to take out. Second, he was able to see my right side of uterus and right fallopian tube hole, but not the other side. From what he saw today he said, it looked like I have "Unicornuate Uterus." Basically, this is a birth defect and I have two ovaries, but I only have half the uterus and one side of tube. He said my doctor will take a look at these pictures probably want to schedule HSG to confirm my condition.
When I asked him if I still had a polyp, he said it was gone and the uterus I had, even though it was half, looked fine. I asked him if we should even try to get pregnant. He said he wouldn't see why not, but told me it was probably just better to wait what Dr. P could do for me before we try again.
I asked him about my AFC from the other day. He said it was 22 and anything more than 10 is great. When I told him my old doctor counted only 5 and I asked her to recount, he said "she didn't recount for you, that's fine." He said "It doesn't matter, we counted 22 and you are good in my book."
The nurse took me to the receptionist area to schedule, but when I got dressed, I was still crying. Pain had been gone already, but I just felt bad for me. How can I have half the uterus... I feel bad to tell my mother. I am afraid she will feel responsible and will be hurt. I don't think it was my parents' fault or anything like that. This is the card that I was dealt with. It is what it is. The nurse asked me if I was okay and if I wanted to have a glass of water before we walked to the scheduling lady. I told her I was okay.
After she dropped me off at the scheduling lady, the scheduling lady asked me if I was okay. She then told me to come in so I wasn't hanging around in the waiting room like that. I started crying again because they were just so nice. She asked me if I was crying because of the pain and if I was okay to drive home. She said I could sit with them until I felt better and she gave me a glass of water and tissue. She said Dr. Plosker will look at the pictures and let her know the next step and them she will call me. She gave me another ibuprofen just in case. I took it and finished my water and told her I was okay and thanked her.
I still feel pretty bad about my situation, but I feel very fortunate that I was able to switch my doctor. Look at these people. What a difference. They are just 1000 times nicer than the old one.
Once I calm down, it will be time for me to ask Dr. Google about the situation.
Oh hun I am so sorry about this. I know how devastating a unicornuate uterus diagnosis must feel to you. Just remember though, it's not like the doctor told you, you can't get pregnant or ever carry a baby. He didn't say that. I don't want you to give up. No matter what, you will overcome this obstacle. You and Tim will have a baby. Let's take a deep breath and wait to see what the doctor says is the next step. One thing I've learned is, in order to survive infertility, we need to take everything one step at a time. Too much at once, too much thinking of what if's and the future, is too overwhelming. (hugs)
ReplyDeleteThank you for your support. I am trying to keep positive, but I am just so worried. It looks like I don't have much problem getting pregnant. My problem will be keeping it. I have never thought I'd find out all these things about my body. I get anxious and can't sleep well either. There are people in a situation a lot worse than I am in, but that doesn't really help me feel any better. :(
DeleteI know, no matter how the doctors cut and dice it, nothing will make you feel better b/c I know how important it is to be able to not only keep; but also to carry a baby to full-term on your own. I think none of us expected to be hit with infertility; it's a cruel deck of cards we've been dealt with :( I think everybody's situation is different and sometimes it helps to put things in perspective (i.e. some people are worse off than you); I don't think we should minimize any of our pains. I would be going through the same feelings as you, no worries. When do you have your next appointment to talk about the next step?
DeleteI know you said take one day at a time, but all kinds of things are going through my mind. Like will I have another miscarriage or even worse, still birth? Will the baby have something wrong because my body couldn't provide enough nutrients? Surrogate is not gonna be our option. That makes IVF look like a cheaper option and we both know it's not. I am waiting for my doctor's office to call me. If they don't call me today, I will call them tomorrow.
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