I'd like to believe positive thoughts bring in positive things. I believe that when we go in tomorrow for our ultra sound, our baby's heart will be beating faster and stronger. I believe that tomorrow, RE doctor will tell me I no longer need to see her.
My breasts are really sore today, but other than that, I don't really feel pregnant. I might be more sensitive to the smells than I used to, but how would I know? I am the only one who knows what I'm smelling. It's TMI, but I do have this constant discharge. Judging from my sore breasts and my constant flow of vaginal discharge, I believe our baby is growing.
I have been listening to "Pregnancy Meditation Hypnosis" by Anna Thompson before I go to bed every day since last Friday. It's funny how I fall asleep (I think), but I always here her say "Wake up, wake up." when it's done. I intend on listening to what she is saying in between, but I never get to hear it. I am sure my subconscious is absorbing all the positiveness.
We also have told quite a few people about our pregnancy. I have not blasted it on Facebook or anything like that, but we told our close circle of our friends. I refuse to believe telling people during the first trimester brings a bad luck. Actually, I would like them to know even if things go wrong. That way, I won't have to pretend like nothing is wrong.
Tomorrow around this time, I know I will be laughing about my worries. Tomorrow around this time, I will be worrying about some other things. I know RE is wrong. She is just a doom and gloom, negative Nelly. I am providing our baby the safe environment and he is growing.
Keep the positive thoughts. That's all we can really do during the hard times - think positive and not give up. I'll be praying and thinking of you tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Hope! I guess I am nervous. I kept on waking up throughout the night. My appointment is at 1:15 and Tim will pick me up at 12:30. The thing is that regardless of the outcome, I have to go back to work today. It's crunch time and I can't be going home crying. I think this is also a good sign that the baby will be okay.
ReplyDeleteI know, it's so hard. I feel the same way b/c it's crunch time and very busy at my work right now. I know how hard it is to go back to work and hold those tears. But don't worry, if your gut says everything is fine, everything is fine. Everything will be fine. Thinking of you today friend. (Hugs)
DeleteBoohoohoo... I am so scared!!! Tim is coming to get me any minute. Thank you, Hope. It makes me feel better you are thinking of me.
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